Last night as I was heading back home, I felt tensed and confused. I got a feeling of extreme irritation as I was walking along the bridge going to Guadalupe. I, all of a sudden was cursing the strong blow of the wind, the smoke coming out from the engine of the passing cars, the sweat drifting into my face and the long walk that I am taking (which is really just a short distance from my office to the Jeepney station in Guada).
As I was going to the usual line up of the jeeps, I was welcomed by a long queue of passengers bound to C5-Housing, Pateros and FTI the same direction that I am going. No choice but to line up as well. I am not familiar to the place the queue is heading. As the line moves forward, I realized that we need to pass through the parking lot of the Mall, that was just fine with me as I thought. But things get worse when the line was liked freezed for about 15 minutes or so and we are standing there in heat and me feeling claustrophobic all of the sudden can't help but to sigh in angst. My sensitive nose immediately caught a foul smell like a tire or something with lead is being burnt. I can't control myself anymore, my face and action already manifested the feelings that I've been suppressing. I felt anger, like all is hell, I see all things negatively even the innocent man behind me. Not hiding my angry face at anyone who sees me.
I felt something is stranged in my behaviour, this is not me. I had been lady-like all patient and prim for the last weeks and then now I feel completely the oppposite. Like I'm a big bouncer ready to brawl. I feel like shouting to everyone. To my co-passengers, to the drivers, the barkers, even the to the dog. And then it hit me, looks like I'm under a spell again. A spell cast only to girls like me. The curse of PMS or the Premenstrual syndrome.
I know that I have PMS if I'm acting irrational, easily angered, cries all of a sudden, feeling joyful at one moment then becomes sad again. My number one manifestation is when I feel extremely angry to Panyet with shallow or no valid reasons at all. Which just happened a while ago while were talking over the phone. It's hard to control the situation when we have no hold to it.
I just got off the jeep, I'm about to buy Cetirizine in the Generics pharmacy but it was out of stock. O Great! I tried to ask on the next pharmacy but their Cetirizine cost 32 pesos which is being sold for only 3.50 pesos in the Generics. Thinking that is not convenient, I opted to walked back to the other pharmacies and I was able to buy for some for 8 pesos each atleast it is not that expensive compared to that 32 pesos.
And so I was able to get home and fixed myself. I realized how a PMS could ruin your day.
(Written a week ago)
yap, getting the PMS is sucked.
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